I deserve to go hell because i'm so careless and i neglected them, i let them died.. i thought i have done what i could, my best but turned out i haven't, it all gone in vain..but i hope they'll go to heaven... till this day i still think of them.. the ones i lost, the thought of turning back time when they were alive and save them from me is crossing my mind every single time..
Thank you god that at least you leave me with 2 beautiful babies, a legacy from bonnie, my pretty girl, i'm sorry for what happened, for not taking care of you better, i thought i could do it, treat you by myself, if only i saw how much of a fool i was and brought you to the doctor sooner, you might have been still here in my arm begging for food..
Minnie my first love, people say you cant ever forget your first love and they are right, you're still in my heart always, losing you because of stupid mistake is one of my greatest regret. When you first came it wasn't a love of first sight but in the end i was crying for days missing you. Where ever you are i hope you are taking care of and happy.. Maybe this was one of God's way for you to escape me and not ending up like Bonnie, i hope that is the case..
To My boys who i lost because of carelessness of people around me, my babies that i lost because of my greediness, my babies i lost because of my carelessness, my babies i lost after fighting greatest enemy, i still think of you everyday, you are not forgotten, i know now you're playing with angels in heaven
There were many cutest souls that i've lost, i thought i could learn from my past mistake but i didn't.. Since i lost them, i have promised myself to be better, to take care of them who survive to be able to stay by side as long as God allows..
Comments
Post a Comment